Are we looking at the wrong directions of our lives?

Occasions like these, I ask myself if the paths I am taking in life are right, but like seriously, who is to define what is right and what is wrong with my life? Choosing to not do well in Alevels, landed me in SIM. SIM? It is the degree that I get out of the course. I am really suspicious of how far it can bring me. Nageb told us even a second upper class is inadequate, so why am I wasting time here studying and slogging away for a degree that is not backing my future? I am just very unsure of everything at this point of life. What did I land myself into? Joining of SRC and taking up more tuitions. This should not be the way or is it?

Mounting these thoughts, I have been waking up almost everyday in tremor. Forgetting what day it is, what I have to do for the day. So imagine every morning, I will open my eyes and see sunlight, sending me to a frantic search of the time and recalling what day it is, if I have morning lessons or work that I missed. It is NOT a very nice way to start my day. I go to bed in fear that I did not set my alarm at the right time, and I wake up in fear that I did not set my alarm right the night before. UH HUH..

I cannot even do things as well as I did in the past. Those that I used to be so proud of, and would not hesitate to taunt anyone with the fact that I am good at it. But I just lost it. Where did my confidence go?

Can someone tell me what is wrong with me??

Or did anyone hear me?