I am very disturbed.

The social responsibilities that one hold, put them in such awkward situations and people usually have no idea how to get out of it.. It does not always start with a wrong decision made, it is how you handle the consequences of the wrong step you took. To only complain about it and take no concrete steps to rectify the issue will no doubt lead to the growth of the problem. But it is not easy to disentangle the knots! There are too many factors to mull over and to be hindered by these factors, will bring you nowhere close to solving the problem.

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I have a job. This job is not doing me any good except for having more time to spend with my best friend. The people there are generally unfriendly. Like how the manager said, "Here, you'll feel that you're thrown into the vast ocean. And you'll float alone. At first you won't feel comfortable but at the end of it, you'll get used to the lonesome journey back to the shore and won't feel too bad about it." Right. Very True. But why should I throw myself into such a situation? Why do I even want to jump into the sea to get myself wet and helpless when I can stay dry and loved on the land?

This, is mis-decision NO. 1. Throwing myself into the sea. (without knowing that it was the sea! Some misinterpretations here and there) Hence, after dropping into the sea, I found my only log to cling on was my best friend. However, I have to recognize the fact that the log will not be there always for me to cling on and to pull me on this journey.

SO! I have to face SEA MONSTERS myself! MONSTER 1. BIG FAT GLOBBY WORDS SPUTTER. He'll create current to push you back to your starting line, puts you down and thinks he's funny. HA HA HA! FUNNY MY FOOT. MONSTER 2. SMALL SKINNY POINTING-UP-AND-DOWN AH MA MA. She's Fine.. She plainly likes to add on to the currents that BIG FAT GLOBBBY WORDS SPUTTER creates. MONSTER 3. FLOATING ASS-LICKING MAGGOT. I CANNOT STAND HIS DEPTHLESS monologue with the heads. And I SAID MONOLOGUE! SOMEONE PLEASE DRAG HIM AWAY!

The rest are generally more subtle creatures (maybe just yet to show their true colors) However, the superficialness that floats in the air is suffocating me! It's darn maddening to make superficial conversations. And to shoot rude remarks at their peers. AND THEY MEANT their remarks. SO imagine.

C 1: "HEy! You didn't bring your brain to work again?! When are you going to start doing that?"
C 2: "Hey I've got brains okie!"
C 1: "YAH. PEA BRAINS"
C 2: "---silence--"

And screaming and shouting in the person's face in front of guests.

C 3: "YOU DID THIS WRONGLY!?"
C 4: "BUT I..."
C 3: " STOP COOKING UP EXCUSES....$@()&$)#C 3: " STOP COOKING UP EXCUSES....$@()&$)#$&!#*$&~
amp;!#*C 3: " STOP COOKING UP EXCUSES....$@()&$)#$&!#*$&~
amp;~
erms.. screaming goes on...

Hmmm... How is this organization hanging on? Hostility is in the air and it darningly is not very pleasing. And to hand around with them, I get affected too! I may not be a very friendly creature, but I do not fit into this bunch of intimidating people.

Of course! Apart from the cloudy moments, there are rare sunshine. BUT! You would not know if thunders and lightnings come after the sun shine! And you are clueless if the sun is really shining or just some disillusion. It is just not a good environment to work in.

Now comes the part where concrete steps I would like to take to solve this melancholy. And hindering me is none other than my 9 years of best mate. Leaving the workplace is letting her down. My social role here is as a friend, a very good friend, a best friend. My social responsibility here is to uphold her delectation and to not put her in a gawky situation of having to explain for my irresponsibilities. I was the one making the wrong decision! Howbeit, I do not wish to be tied down in the evil aura too often... I'll make days go.. AND PLEASE BLESS ME!! DO NOT PAIR ME UP WITH ANY OF THE MONSTERS TONIGHT! I WILL TOPPLE! I SWEAR.........................................................................................................................................................

Gloomy days are the days at work, without my best mate.

AND PLEASE SOME SUGGESTIONS ON HOW-TO-GET-BACK-MY-STUFF.

I AM HIGHLY DISTURBED!